Friday, May 20, 2011

all scared.

fear

by Paul David Lujan on Saturday, June 19, 2010 at 4:31pm
so its interesting that the clip i posted from "defending your life" mentions "fear" as a sort of cloud. its almost perfect with what i had intended to write in this note.

i believe fear is a handicap. it prevents people from ever being happy.

i am also watching the movie "good night, and good luck" and its a good reminder of how "fear" can make people stay in line and stop questioning those in authority.

fear makes you complacent. too afraid to speak up, because then everyone will be looking at you. while i believe "fear" serves a purpose, too often it controls the way people live.

fear of breaking any rules or taking any risks. "complacent" to settle for the path that always involves "less risk". staying with the wrong person for "fear" of starting over. never questioning a boss for "fear" of losing your job.

fear robs you of the things you want if you allow it to.

count me out of that crowd!

fear.

FEAR

by Paul David Lujan on Thursday, June 24, 2010 at 1:42pm
Fear is the parent of cruelty, and therefore it is no wonder if cruelty and religion have gone hand-in-hand. It is because fear is at the basis of those two things. In this world we can now begin a little to understand things, and a little to master them by the help of science, which has forced its way step by step against the Christian religion, against the churches, and against the opposition of all the old precepts. Science can help us to get over this craven fear in which mankind has lived for so many generations. Science can teach us, and I think our own hearts can teach us, no longer to look around for imaginary supports, no longer to invent allies in the sky, but rather to look to our own efforts here below to make this world a fit place to live in, instead of the sort of place that the churches in all these centuries have made it.

- Bertrand Russell

Shake off all the fears of servile prejudices, under which weak minds are servilely crouched. Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call on her tribunal for every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason than that of blindfolded fear.

-Thomas Jefferson

revelutionary road.

so this was just going to be a comment, but apparently i type too much...

by Paul David Lujan on Saturday, July 10, 2010 at 2:50pm
so now its a note and i can really bore you all to death!!

wayz out.

so anyway, im watching "revolutionary road" -- and i gotta say that this movie has some good acting!

leo and kate's (haha) fight scenes are intense! i have been in some pretty good "rager" fights in my day when it comes to women and relationships, and this movie kind of gives me "deja vu", ah ah.

it really captures the complexities of relationships and love. how love is a glue of sorts, but sometimes it sticks two people together that are headed down different paths. then what? its strange the way loving a person can feel like work at times.

maybe some people havent experienced this, the lucky ones, buts its a strange sensation to love a person one minute, and want nothing more than to see them die another.

how do you try to prepare anyone for that sort of rollercoaster? you cant.

thats why we should all just live in a moment a bit more.

time.

Inception "time rules"...

by Paul David Lujan on Monday, July 19, 2010 at 2:04am
so i am about to put everyone at a full on nerd alert…

the movie “inception” has been on the brain, particularly the “time rules”, and how each level of the dream you get deeper into, it compounds the time away from reality by 10 (i think, don’t remember exactly, but my math is based on 10, damnit!).

so for those of you that have not seen the movie, this will probably make zero sense, but those of you that have seen it, i have worked up some numbers to find out how long him and his wife were actually asleep “in reality” while “building their world” in the dream for so long.

these could be wrong, but i feel "ok" with them..

*SPOILERS*

ok, so in the movie they explain that 5 minutes in reality is really like 1 hour in the dream world. however, if you were to go into different levels of dreams (dreams within dreams) then the amount of time spent in a dream is compounded by 10 for every level you go. so, that means that by time they are hangin out in "limbo", time is really stretching out forever in the dream, but not so much in reality. i wanted to figure out how long they were actually "asleep" in the real world in contrast to their 50 years in the dream.

ok, here we go -- numbers...

60 seconds = minute
60 minutes = hour
24 hours = day
365 days = year

m = minutes
h = hour
d = day
y = year -- duh!

5m = 1 hour -- 60m - 5m = 55m

55m x 24h (1 day) = 1320m

1320m / 60m (1 hour) = 22h

so, at 1 level into a dream...

1h (reality) = 22h (dream) = 0.91 days (dream)

level 2...

1h (reality) = 220h (dream) = 9.16 days (dream)

level 3...

1h (reality) = 2200h (dream) = 96.66 days (dream)

limbo...

1h (reality) = 22000h (dream) = 916.66 days (dream) / 365 (days in a year) = 2.51 yrs

so, if they were away for 50 years in the dream "building", that means...

50y / 2.51y = 19.9

24h x 365d = 8760h (in a year) x 50 = 438000h (in 50 years)

438000h (hours in 50 years) / 22000 (1h in limbo) = 19.9h

24h (in a day) / 19.9h (limbo time) = 0.82 days asleep in reality

so they were asleep for about 19.9 hours, or 0.82% of a day in reality, but 50 years in a dream, i think.

i sort of worked myself into a jam there in the end. sometimes i start to lose track of where im going with some of this stuff, but i like numbers, because eventually they all come together to make some sense..kind of.

baseball, ray! they will come to see baseball.

Baseball and the number 9...

by Paul David Lujan on Monday, September 20, 2010 at 12:18pm

as most people know, baseball is a numbers game. a game for guys like me that like to crunch numbers and see if anything can be found in them.

so i have been thinking about how i love the game, and not only because of the numbers, but baseball has a tons of traditions and rules, some written and some just unspoken, and they are just kind of fun.

anyhow, lately i have just been thinking that odd numbers seem to have some importance to baseball and the way its played.

in baseball you need 3 outs per inning, 27 total to win a game. (3 outs over 9 innings)

so...

27 = 2 + 7 = 9

or

27 x 2 = 54 -- 5 + 4 = 9 (both teams)

the bases are spread 90 feet apart, giving the bases a parameter of 360 feet.

3 + 6 + 0 (parameter) = 9

and the actual "area" of the bases equals out to be...

1166400 square inches, or 8100 square feet.

1 + 1 + 6 + 6 + 4 + 0 + 0 = 18

and

1 + 8 = 9 (even to odd)

or

8 + 1 + 0 + 0 (square feet) = 9

also...

there are 162 games in a season.

1 + 6 + 2 = 9

whoever thought up baseball had numbers on the brain.

life online.

looking at my myspace page...

by Paul David Lujan on Wednesday, October 13, 2010 at 10:49pm

i had sort of forgotten all about myspace.

it was sort of funny watching "the social network" today -- since i have been online so long now, it was funny to hear some of the terms and lingo in the movie from just a couple of years ago.

i think in the last couple of years, facebook has sort of fueled the online addiction the same way AOL chat rooms did back in the day. there used to be people that spent all day online, but never left a chat room, and i think facebook is similar. i remember when facebook was a college thing, and then one day it was for everyone.

so anyway, i was reminded tonight that my myspace was just a little out of date, and so while i was in the process of cleaning out the old...i started to look at my myspace as maybe a stranger would. its like, most of the stuff was only a couple years old, but it might as well been another lifetime for me.

anyway, as i was looking through the old stuff, i found this blog that i still liked.

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Friday, July 18, 2008

el presidente!

im not sure if it was a national ad, but i saw a funny john mccain commercial the other night. it was a propaganda'ish advertisement. trying to force the idea that his military experience and vietnam heroics somehow make him a capable leader. what exactly do you lead in a p.o.w. prison for 5 years? probably not much. anyway, what sort of message is he really feeding us. is he saying that being in the navy in the 60's means he understands how to fight a new kind of war, the sort of war that never going to go away? how exactly does a military background help out when the next president is going to inherit a crashing economy, soaring energy prices, buku inflation, and a deteriorating infrastructure? how can a guy in his 70's be the sort of forward thinker the country needs to dig us out of the hole were in? the united states has lost its way, and four more years of backwards thinking will be the end of us.

there is an entire generation entering the workforce, and for the first time in history there are 3 generations of people working together. i think that opens up so much potential for this country. young people learning from fellow employees that have 20+ years in any given industry. relearning old ideas and improving upon them. thats how we advance as a country. with energy prices rocketing and technology advancing, its hard to see how there is not a major shift in the way we live coming soon. if $5 a gallon for gas is what this country needs to finally exit this holding pattern we have been in and really take off, then im ok with that.

the next president of the united states better be a big thinker. i grew up in the 80's...i dont know about the rest of you guys (girls), but patriotism was force fed to us in the 80's. we pledged our allegiance every morning. we new america was better than russia, and everyone else. now, i dont know about the reality of the world at the time, but as a kid...this shit worked on me. i am a total proud american. i hate seeing our country this way. i hate that we have lost the respect of the world. i hate that our status as a "world leader" has been so tarnished, saudi arabia can tell our president "no" to a request, and he has no ability to do anything about it. people are so divided over ideas and opinions these days.

if it the destruction of america is a terrorists ultimate goal...i think they are getting it.

sad.

ok, im all over here....back on track.

going back to this commercial...what does pointing out a strong military background really say to americans? i think it says that john mccain expects to be at war for a long time, and that he also thinks he is the man with a plan to make america "safe". i also think it hints very strongly at the idea of..."how is barrack obama gonna PROTECT you?? john mccain has seen seen war, he knows its hell, and he knows how to defend YOU as we move further towards a war ravaged future!"

obviously its not that blatant, but thats what its really about. more fear. more propaganda, more bullshit.

old writing.

This is from February of 2009, the "comments" section of a story in the Denver Post...

by Paul David Lujan on Friday, February 4, 2011 at 11:37am
  • February 10, 2009

10:11 a.m.

SICKGUY writes:

I like how all you republicans sure like cry foul when the media is so unfair to your poor party. it seems strange to hear so many whines about an op-ed from a guy that’s always been a bit more liberal (Littwin looks like a hippy) but rush Limbaugh can be on the radio in every major city spitting outright lies and hate?? he reaches millions everyday to talk nonsense while most cities have only one or no solid liberal radio outlets. and the media is biased towards the left? I’m not seeing it, sorry.

The top brass in the republican party is looking to “Joe the Plummer” and rush Limbaugh to show them the way, and obviously its working. they are like monkeys that are handed an agenda and informed not to stray from the path, or else! do any of you realize that that thanks to your beloved bush administration, your grandkids “grandkids” are already in debt up to their eyeballs, and it was hardly to work of democrats that have this country on the brink of collapse. and since when did the republican party all of sudden decide it wanted to be the party of fiscal responsibility again anyway? Bush leaves so now its time to follow the word of someone new. Whatever happened to being free thinkers? Whatever happened to being an elected official that is voted by the people to serve the people? How many $500 billion bills did a republican run government vote for in order to build a country we destroyed in the name of security? its fine to spend and spend, only as long as its for war, war, war. is that right?

  • 10:22 a.m.

SICKGUY writes:

Lets Think...

yes, lets think on it. why was the media so harsh on G.W. bush and why do they love Obama? Hmmm, maybe its partly due to Obama only being president for 3 weeks while bush had 8 years to prove he only got worse with time. he started a war ill prepared. he threw money to contractors that didn’t do what they were contracted to do. KBR has literally wasted BILLIONS of our tax dollars, so how come there is not a backlash from the right to make them accountable? why have KBR and Halliburton not been punished? Cause thanks to bush, cronyism is alive and well in the Republican Party. When you put unqualified friends into positions that demand more than good connections, the result is what you read in the news everyday, corruption and an inability to accomplish anything for the american people.

obama and the democrats are trying to help the country. there is an urgency to his message because its pretty obvious that sitting back and waiting for the market to correct itself with tax cuts is just not going to happen. obama readily admits that there are no guarantees this will work out perfectly, but actions do speak louder than words, and unfortunately, words and rhetoric are really the only things republicans are offering up.

February 10, 2009

10:56 p.m.

SICKGUY writes:

denverrep,

everything you said...just stupid.

two years ago things were going great because we were all playing with monopoly money. it took bush and his sheep congress only eight years to bleed away money from the middle-class and pump it into the pockets of the fat cats. you think drug CEO's lose money with our health care system? what about companies like blackwater that grew 110% since the start of the war in iraq. you think the CEO over there is worried about money?

it blows me away how pessimistic the attitude about obama is. the guy inherits a sh*t storm of bad news just 3 weeks ago, and people on here are talking like he is already a failure. a failure, except he has already accomplished more in less than a month than bush did the entire time prior to 9-11. say you are starting a job on monday morning, and you have been hired to solve all the companies problems. the problems being a huge financial mess, employees losing faith in management, huge salary gaps from employee to big man. major problems that took years to create, but you only get a month to fix it all-- now go! i dont think there is anyone that can do that is such a time frame.

some of the criticism is ridiculous.

we are so far into the hole that most of us are going to be paying this debt off till the day we die. its probably going to be years before we even start to actually pay for for this stimulus. but the republicans just cannot have more spending!

also, it seems there are smart guys on here, explain this to me, please? while fighting two wars, and also having nearly 3 million less people paying taxes due to unemployment, how is only cutting taxes going to solve our problems?